The bullying stops, but has an enormous aftereffect. Negative words, negative beliefs and feelings of inferiority. The dragon represents all of this negativity, spitting ugly words…
This dragon shows what mostly is hidden for the outside world. It is the inner dragon, which is very very dangerous as long as he is invisible. Making this dragon visible and having the courage to look straight into the eyes of the dragon, helps to make him less dangerous.
Words of the dragon
The dragon spits out a never ending stream of always repeating words: Fat, stupid, inferieur, ugly, boring, failure, bad, never good enough, hopeless case, over and too much, unloved.
Many years I have lived with these words.
It made me feel afraid, uncertain, nervous, compulsive, ashamed, tense, restless, chased,
exhausted, ill, dependent and not free.
Confrontation with the dragon
At December 20, 2011, I am badly hurt by a fall with my bike. I break my right upper arm, loose a tooth and my nose and chin have to be stitched. I have a lot of pain and can do almost nothing without help any more. Almost all outer activity stops, but the inner activity gets more and more. I see myself in the mirror and am shocked by what I see. And then I am still more shocked: I am shocked by seeing... the dragon. The distorted image of myself in the mirror suddenly becomes a metaphor: With a shock I realize that the image I have from myself is the distorted image of the dragon. However the good news is that the dragon now has become visible. That will diminish his power over me. I am determined now to conquer the dragon finally.
In spite of all my pain, Christmas 2011 to me is a special experience. I experience peace and rest and something from this peace and rest also later stays with me as a new basic feeling. I feel myself less a victim of life and develop more strength. This strength I need later to conquer the dragon.
Treasury of the dragon
Dragons usually love gold and other precious things. They often also have a treasure, which they jealously guard. The treasury of this dragon is under his body. In this treasury he has hidden the golden words, not spoken beautiful words and words that could not be heard….Beautiful words, words that make you smile, happy words.
It would be a shame if those words remain forever hidden.
In the fairytale of the frightened little bird and the dragon the big Alchemy bird will be very important. But in the end the frightened little bird has to visit the dragon again, to find the golden words and the golden key words that are hidden in his treasury. But then she is already a long time not a frightened bird any more.